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Human Hangovers

​ This is rather embarrassing or it could be interpreted as a huge breakthrough. I suffer from human hangovers. Maybe I’m secretly allergic to humans. I do wish it was that easy, to mock a self diagnosis. But it’s not. I’ll explain in sec.   Just know that I’ve thought being a hermit could be really cool. Also when watching the film: into the Wild. I thought, this is the life. The book was written in 1996 and the film came out in 2007. Sean Penn directed and the soundtrack is amazing! It’s by Eddie Vedder from Pearl Jam.  Ok, let’s jet into the human hangover (hopefully you are now reading as you have Eddie in your ears) I cut out toxic people out of my life a good decade ago. It’s more like 15 years or more. I’ve gone one step further and cut out family too. There are very firm boundaries and I operate within this only. If I don’t maintain these boundaries I suffer the consequences big time.  I’m going to give real life examples of what human hangover means / feels like ...
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Detox plan & detach from Everything

Here is plan for the rest of year.   This is going to be sooo boring for you the reader but I’ll try and make it snappy.  Coach Renee has suggested I go on a 3 month detox. Do almost nothing other than my employment for September, October and November. The rest of August and December I can go wild, see people, do things etc.  Now for September. There were a few things already in the calendar so I’ll enjoy that but nothing else. My mom will be in town for a few days in October so that’s going to be another blip.  However, the rest of the plan. Will look like: Staying at home, cooking, trying to loose this f’ing weight, not seeing people, just quieting the soul.  Today I had a lightbulb moment. What if I gave up TV and film for those 3 months? And even better, what if I got off of social media too. Imagine. I can hardly imagine. I could read my ten million books, I could blog more, maybe daily. Time to walk, time to meditate. Maybe I would even do some yoga. ...
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The last 5 days

Sorry that I didn’t post as planned. I was basing this on the cruise where I had time to myself every night in the cabin to unwind before bed.   New York was not that. I was out walking daily and ended my evenings almost comatose. I waked about between 20 to 40 thoughts steps a day. That’s a lot for these teeny tiny size 36 feet (35 in heels 👠 in case anyone is shopping of me) PS. Girls and boys, learn your European shoe size. Stay cool.  So I’ve been back from the big apple for 5 full days. Maybe this delay integration has been necessary. Before i get into New York magic, let’s talk about the other regular characters in my life.  Housemate is good and home life continues to be smooth sailing. He continues to cook for me and feed me! I continue to do a bunch of the pink jobs and he does the blue ones. Remember there is very little conversation here, it’s just working. You would hope so after living together for 8 years. He’s also got better at saying thank you. Unfortuna...
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If I could have anything

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​ If someone / god / universe were to ask me if I could have anything right now, guess what it would be? Not millions, not a husband, not children (which I desperately want), not a homes is multiple locations. It would be a healthy, calm, regulated nervous system.  Yes I want all those other things too but my first wish is for my nervous system. Unless you know what dysregulation is, you may not understand what I’m taking about. Or me to be frank.  Let’s start with life recently. I’ve been very stressed and I haven’t dealt with it that well. Though I have dealt with it.  I’ve been up at all hours and take a nap during my lunch break. Up at 2am, and all sorts of bizarre times.  The housemate was not impressed with my 4am bath the other day. I tried ti be quiet but I suppose in a house that was built in 1897, you can hear the plumbing.  I’ve also been soothing myself with the adult pacifier, this is known as scrolling on instagram and watching YouTube. Amongst thi...
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