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When the body says no.

This is a short entry. This is the email I sent my mother today.  Hi, I hope this finds you well.  I’ve decided to write to you so that you have time to yourself to read at your own leisure vs talking a call.  For the last 4 years now I have actively set firm boundaries that work for me, my health and my nervous system. I know from an outsider’s point of view they may seem harsh or odd.  All I am able to commit to is 1 x 60 minutes group family call a month. When it come to in-person engagement, an annual family holiday, I am open to once a year with lots of planning many, many months in advance.  The words that you spoke on Monday have brought me to this conclusion that I don’t believe you should come visit me, stay with me, see me. I’m not in a position to put myself at risk. You said quite a lot on Monday. You may have spoken in haste, anger, emotion etc. However you can not undo what you said. Nor do I want you to.  I have pointed out what does not work...
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Horrible

​ It’s late and I would attempt sleep but all these thoughts would ramble in my head so why not ramble on paper.   This day has been full. The last 2 days have been full.  Most important things on the last 2 days is that I’m going back to Worthy Farm in June. You heard that right, I got tickets to the Glastonbury Festival of Contemporary Preforming Arts aka Glasto! I woke up on Sunday morning and knew it was going to happen. Even as I was typing the details I was shaking. This is known phenomenon for people that are lucky enough to get tickets in the ballot. There will be moi, Ms. Steiner and Mr.Richmond’s first time there. I’m also renewing with Renee! It was always going to happen but I’ve jigged things with the help of the universe to make it happen.  Today, Monday I booked my hotel to see Stonehenge again in March 2027. It’s really fun seeing the stones up close and personal. Also I’ll head to Glastonbury town again too. My aunt and uncle (UBM and BM) will probably be...
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Is writing therapy or a chore?

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​ Soundtrack: Stephen Wilson Jr.   Location: Bed The last time I wrote, Mr.Dimples asked if writing is a bit like therapy, does it help me, is it cathartic. The answer is yes, but it’s also hard. That’s the biggest reason so many days have passed since the last blog entry.  Coach Renee is back in my life. Thank God for that. I missed her so much. I only have 2 more sessions with her which is not great. Coaching isn’t like therapy where you just pay for your session. Coaches tend to sell their services as packages where you pay upfront. I’m going to manifest a load of cash. Everything will work out in the end. Sometimes there is a gap between our container packages so let’s see.  I did just pay for the complete first year of my 3 year homeopathy course that starts later this month. It couldn’t come soon enough. I need to get my head into something soon. Bad things could happen if I don’t.  Let’s explain what bad things are. In the last few days I have done extensive r...
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