The way it is according to moi

Saturday July 11th 2026 ​ I’m starting this entry from my office aka the bathtub. I think if I was a millionaire I would have some sort of standing desk in a pool with a waterproof keyboard. I’m sure that sort of thing works. I know when I was working for the NHS we have these really clean keyboards that you would just wipe etc.   The football is also on right now, house mate is watching and I’ll watch towards the end when it’s important. I’ve only ever lived in 2 countries; I can tell you that how England scores affects life on the street. Happy people vs sad people.  Regardless of the footy, we get to choose how we want this precious life to play out.  As mentioned in previous entries, I’ve fallen off the radar with the core folks. I still send the occasional text. One of them asked how I was doing etc. This was my response: (Start of text) Hey, thanks for the text. I’m mostly ok with the heat most nights. Even the days, I seem to be wearing lots of strapless bandeau dr...

I started writing on the evening to Tuesday July 7th and posting on the evening of Wednesday July 8th ​ Well well, I’m back again. I’m sitting here on an annoying synthetic velvet sofa in the heat, typing on an iPhone with 6% battery while watching Normal People for the 10 millionth time. As for the sofa, my next one will be linen ideally or maybe cotton or wool. It won’t be sprayed with scotch guard or any toxins. I won’t care if it gets dirty. Where the fuck have I been? Be warned, I’m in a super sweary mood. Every second word of this entry could be fuck.  June was pretty good, I’m staying in my lane even though I fucking hate that stupid saying. I’ve been uber careful with my boundaries, mindful if I’ve giving too much and how I feel. When I’m with people, does the atmosphere and feeling feel reciprocal? This actually means I haven’t seen alot of friends. Over my growth in the last few months, I’ve outgrown the majority of ‘my people’. I know this sounds weird and odd. Also than...

​ Today has been a lot harder for no particular reason other than it’s a lot. It makes me think of life partners and spouses. Finding a person who you can be with at the same time is not actually doing things. I see so many couples that keep so busy, that that’s the way they survive. I also think it’s why some people stay together. They know how to live with that other person, and any change is too much. They aren’t always happier but the change is a step too far.   I’m digressing and going on a tangent.  Several hours later. I’ll give you bulet points  my mom pre paid for a photo package of 20 digital prints. 154 pictures were taken, I gave up helping them choose. My mom paid so really I think her say is good enough. My dad was melting on the outdoor decks and near the pool. He then went to change and came back in some questionable shorts. I asked him why he didn’t wear swimming shorts / trunks and he said he didn’t want to go into the water. Fair enough. Then he said, I...

​ Just wanted to come on and say hi.   I’ve been lying low recently, more than normal. There are a few reason for this. One is my health, it’s been so up and down (for ever) and the trick is to just listen to my body and rest. I’ve had so many acutes that my body doesn’t even know what normal feels like. I had to say, thank goodness was for TV, Films, Books and podcasts.  Another reason why I’m still in hibernation despite it being Spring is that it costs so much to go out. Even a walk into town results in an expense, eggs, bread, chai etc. Luckily I can afford these things, I’m just trying to spend less and only make purchases that are really a necessity. A pro of being more mindful with my money, is that financial pressures will be easing up soon. Hooray for that!  I had a massive download last night. Here I go. So if I was a cup, all the work, therapy, coaching etc has helped to identify and fill-in, any holes, so that my cup no longer has leaks. This is now complete! ...