The way it is according to moi

Location: the tube heading to St.Pauls Cathedral 6:30 am In my ears: Noah Kahan (prep for December gig) Well my 5 weeks of chill time has well and truly begun… again. I did try this in September and that failed miserably with a few scattered events in the calendar, then the death of my uncle and the visit with my mom.  I can safely say other than work events, school and medical appointments. My calendar is clear. Time for me, myself and I to sort things out.  It’s been a rough few days. I can’t be bothered to go into it, just know that it was painful and I looked like I was having a stroke. My left eye was shutting down etc. during this time I was happy that I was single and childless. I really don’t want a carer or a child to have to care for its parent. O see if all the time and that’s not what I want for my future or now. Therefore, embrace single like while I sort my life out.  The first day of school was good ish. I was exhausted from the day before and not sleeping ...

Friday October 23rd 2026 Location: back on the tube and then the train heading to Richmond to see Mr.Richmond (original I know) and Cauli. Is it bad that I haven’t given her a prefix? Before I go into units. Can we talk about this.  Why has adultery become so fashionable. I don’t really live under a rock, 🪨 I know it’s been happening for millennia but why isn’t there more conversation on the actual devastation vs the lust and excitement of it. What about the cold hard truths.  Remember a few months ago I told you about my friend, stay at home mother of 2 with a successful husband when it comes to his career. Well according to me, he’s not successful at being an honest man. I told you then that he was having an affair and how she would out days before Christmas.  I met up with her and kids a few months ago. Sorry I can’t remember of if I told you about the meet-up or not. Nonetheless, the recap was.. they will see.  As of a week ago their beautiful home is on the mar...

Location: Brixton Academy waiting for Stephen Wilson Jr. to come onto stage.  Also writing to you is distracting me from shopping on vinted, so I mighty as well write. Have I told you my recent obsession of big LL Bean clothing. It’s a USA company based in Maine. It’s very versatile clothing, comfortable. Every once in a while I get homesick for North America. I also know what’s triggered this recent walk down memory lane.  It’s all the mother family crap. Reminds me of what I left and the few tiny memories of when things were ok.  Last week I also bought Disney bed sheets. Yes you heard me right. Little fucked really. Thank God for coach Renee who calls me out. She’s firm but friendly. She reminds me what the route of my behaviour is.  I did treat myself to some of the old memory lane stuff. Have you ever had strawberry Nesquik. It’s pure sugar and will probably kill me faster than my terrible diet. It’s also like a warm hug when life has been particularly tricky. N...