Family breakfast conversation was a heavy and deep so it’s nice to have time alone wrote now to write. In the past I’ve been writing this blog from my state cabin room. This time I’ve picked a different spot.
In text chat my sister has been eluding to the fact I should be doing more for the care of my dad etc. She asked the question again today with everyone around if I would be “stepping up, doing my part.” I am most pleased to say the answer is no. I didn’t even feel the need to go into great reason of why not etc.
She had a cry about her failing health and the responsibility she has etc. I have no interest in dishing out sympathy or empathy. I kindly reminded her that she has taken on these positions and “roles” as a choice. She a can equally put them down. I reminded her that she has not put on her own seatbelt and now she is feeling the repercussions.
She made a point of letting my parents know that she has intentionally not got her divers license because she doesn’t want to be their taxi. I do wish that she would / could understand that she could get a drivers license and choose to not be a taxi. However my personl energy is units and I choose not to spend my units on giving unsolicited advice. Instead, I watch, observe and make decisions that will impact my own life and wellbeing.
As the days go by on this ship I see more mobility scooters and people who are living in a body based on their decisions and choices they have made in their life. I’ve never been a fan of the gym but I do believe in moving the body and getting outdoors. I honestly can’t wait to breathe better. Do you know what else? Soon I won’t be able to give the excuse of breathing constraints. - Side note. Despite my mobile being on airplane ✈️ mode. I’m still getting notifications, however when I click, nothing downloads as expected. I’ve got a message from the hospital. I could be about any appointment so keep your fingers crossed 🤞 that it’s not about the surgery.
A few hours later.
The 12th top deck is too windy so it’s actually closed, so I had a nice walk around the 5th floor outside deck. So good to be out, get fresh air and clear you mind.
Here are some of the nice and funny moments of the day. I asked my mom to braid my hair. She’s always been great at it. She still brushes my hair the same way as when I was a child. It’s not like what you see in TV. You’re grateful if your head hasn’t been pulled off. She not a gentle hair brusher but a great braider. Win win
While this was happening my dad confirmed my age and then asked why I had white hair. I then pointed to my mom who has a full head of white hair and he said, shouldn’t this happen when you are 75? My mom is 70 😂
Then he said, what about your sister’s hair, she has no gray’s and my sister explained that she dyes it. It was funny.
As a family we played a card game my brother brought and then we did some stencil painting with acrylic pens that my mom brought. 3 of us also did another quiz. It’s been a good day mixed with family time and alone time.
Prior to boarding the ship a few days ago my mom was telling me how envious a bunch of her friends are. Their respective families don’t do family things together and then add the extra layer that my folks have been divorced for yonks. We are lucky.
Oooh another conversation topic at this mornings tenser conversation. Both my brother and sister’s therapists advised that they shouldn’t go on this holiday. All 3 children (including myself) had many reservations and concerns about the time together. We are all pleasantly surprised that it’s going much better than originally anticipated.
My mom, brother and sister spend the most time together. They are very use to one another and have lots of banter and jokes. I’m in such a good place that I just watch. I’m happy they are having a good time.
Back to the health bit, lifestyle choices etc. I literally cannot wait to start my homeopathy degree. I so deeply believe that the body is divinely and infinitely perfect. We the human fuck it up and nature and natural remedies (and touch) can bring it back to homeostasis. I can already feel how the next 3 years will be such a game changer.
Quick wrap up of the day. Love is a jar of maraschino cherry 🍒. My brother had a drink and then my dad took and ate his maraschino cherry. Then my brother and sister make a comment that my brother likes the cherries and my dad forgot. He felt really bad and asked the waiter to get them 4 more. My sister then recalled a memory of how my dad brought an entire jar of cherries for my brother when he was younger. That’s what Love is.
Good night x
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