The eve of New Year's Eve

Well! It's that time of year again!... Or almost. Tomorrow will be the last day of 2014! What a year!

I have very mixed feeling on this year. What I know is 2014 is a year I won't forget, even when I wish I could erase things or moments. I learned a lot this year. A great deal. 

As humans we are mixed bag. You get all kinds but I have to say that the vast vast majority of people that I spoke to or gave my time too have been really special.

I think I'll write a thank you blog to them all tomorrow. As much as I often want to be a hermit I need people, a thank you blog entry might be the best way to say goodby to 2014

TO.... No thank you

My heart lives in Montreal and in London. Of course if the right opportunity or person arises I would move but until then, I'll only live in London or Montreal. 

I've been in Toronto (TO) for a few days now, visiting the sis and bro. It's really not my cuppa. It just feels so false with no real character. Montreal is colder, darker, dirty, gritty, cool, and full of so much character!

Toronto is shinny and full of tall sky scraper apartments. It's interesting that people live in downtown TO. In MTL most downtown buildings are office buildings.

One thing that I am really enjoying is that I can look right into these peoples homes. To be honest I haven't seen anything other than they both have decorated Christmas trees and one of them really likes his sports. Last night at 1:30am they were both up watching TV. I can't see the sofas, so who knows if they are alone or even sleeping. If there are both alone I almost wish they knew about each other. They are only 2 doors apart. 

I took an early walk this morning, I really haven't been able to sleep in TO so far. Not sure why? Anyhow, I liked the look of this scary ally way. I'm way too much of a scaredy cat to walk down it. It could be dangerous! I don't know who or what could be there. None the less I took a picture of it. It was intriguing.

Before I head back to MTL I'll try and have another early morning walk. I enjoy watching cities as they wake

They are all trouble. Trust me

I have only told 2 friends that know I'm in MTL. E and Y. 

E I met in university one afternoon when he was having a smoke outside and I was just there. He just started talking to me and that was the beginning of the end. I don't normally talk to strangers, it just felt right. 16 years later and we are still buds. 

Y was on the plane with me in May 2001 when I moved to the UK. We didn't know each other. The final boarding call was made and oh shit! I was about to miss my plane. I ran as fast as I could and a few minutes later I see this guy zoom by with my university backpack. All I saw was his hair, bag, clothing and height. I just thought to myself, he seems cool. Wonder if he's on my flight. Low and behold he was... And sitting next to me too! We spoke for 7 hours and now it's 14 years later. 

I sure do pick em! 

I have only seen E so far and next week I'll catch up with Y. 

They both call me several times a day and it's like I never left. E calls when ever he's driving. Y calls when he is free or when waiting for the bus and metro. 

Y has girl problems so I counsel him in the in's and out's of relationships! I'm full of good advice and wisdom despite my own ducks not being in order. 

E just talks about anything random. He doesn't complain at all and won't listen to me when I complain. He has reason. His older sister died a year ago leaving behind 5 kids. Life seriously sucks sometimes! When E and I met we went for a coffee. I might have been having a winge about something stupid and insignificant and he replied with a good saying. "May that be the worst of your problems..." I smile and shut the fuck up! I'm glad he puts me in my place. Additionally I worry about him. I think he should still express his feelings and emotions even if they are negative or complaining. 

My final part is I love these 2 very different boys, very much. They are great! They are also trouble because they are boys! :-)  

I'm home!!!!

Wow! I'm home after 5 years but it feels like 20! 

My dad has and will always be a character, even more so when he is in his own environment. When he visits me in London he is a little more mellow. 

He absolutes adores his 3 kids, me, my sis and bro. The fact that we are old doesn't change a thing. He treats me the same way I was when I was 16. I think when I'm with my dad, I feel like I'm 16.

A few things have changed but nothing major. I arrived at 21:00 and now it's 23:00. I've had a snoop amongst my things and opened a box that kept important things. 

I love this note, it sums the man up. 

The next pic is one of the many funny conversations I will have with him while I am here. He has way too much stuff (so do I, it's a bad trait I've got from him) and so when I'm here I try and help him. I don't have to do very much other than tell him what to do. I must sound so bossy but he just does what we ask him to do. So this evening, I pointed to a box that's on the living room. This is a pretty big house for one person and there are a million better places for this box to go if it need to be kept. He opens the box and is full of greeting cards. They are separated into groups. The first batch are cards that read, it's a boy! My brother was born 25 years ago. Time for my brother to take these cards off my dad and keep them of he wishes. The next bundle that we looked at were cards to my parents when they were a couple. 

This card is from my sister to my folks. So my dad then comes out with, I'm not sure what to do? I think I should ask your mom? 

I'm so lucky my divorced parents speak to each other and help each other out to this day. My mom has had a rough year, too much to explain and non of your business however my dad said she could stay here. Until recently she actually lived here and was keeping my empty bedroom company. 

Anyhow! It's 5am British time. I best get to sleep. It's nice to be back 

Further investigations still needed

Well! I went to see the doc today and got my results from my blood test last week. Not great really. There are 2 things that are still elevated and further investigation is needed. I have now been referred to the medicine department at my local NHS hospital. I’m hoping that in January I will have my appointment. For women under 50 years old, the level should be less than 20 mm/hr. In July mine was 26 and now its 36. Not great

On a positive it explains why I’m still not feeling fab.

I told the GP that I’m really stressed and will it affect my blood. The plan is to rest rest, rest, while I’m not at work.

Now why am I stressed you ask? A new flat mate moved in on Wednesday. He appeared to have all his ducks in order although he forgot to mention he was an alcoholic! Trust me this realization has not been fun at all. I have asked him to go and he should be out soon!


Todays sound track has been: Built on Glass by Chet Faker

Sorry this is a short entry, more to come soon