The way it is according to moi

Saturday July 11th 2026 ​ I’m starting this entry from my office aka the bathtub. I think if I was a millionaire I would have some sort of standing desk in a pool with a waterproof keyboard. I’m sure that sort of thing works. I know when I was working for the NHS we have these really clean keyboards that you would just wipe etc.   The football is also on right now, house mate is watching and I’ll watch towards the end when it’s important. I’ve only ever lived in 2 countries; I can tell you that how England scores affects life on the street. Happy people vs sad people.  Regardless of the footy, we get to choose how we want this precious life to play out.  As mentioned in previous entries, I’ve fallen off the radar with the core folks. I still send the occasional text. One of them asked how I was doing etc. This was my response: (Start of text) Hey, thanks for the text. I’m mostly ok with the heat most nights. Even the days, I seem to be wearing lots of strapless bandeau dr...

I started writing on the evening to Tuesday July 7th and posting on the evening of Wednesday July 8th ​ Well well, I’m back again. I’m sitting here on an annoying synthetic velvet sofa in the heat, typing on an iPhone with 6% battery while watching Normal People for the 10 millionth time. As for the sofa, my next one will be linen ideally or maybe cotton or wool. It won’t be sprayed with scotch guard or any toxins. I won’t care if it gets dirty. Where the fuck have I been? Be warned, I’m in a super sweary mood. Every second word of this entry could be fuck.  June was pretty good, I’m staying in my lane even though I fucking hate that stupid saying. I’ve been uber careful with my boundaries, mindful if I’ve giving too much and how I feel. When I’m with people, does the atmosphere and feeling feel reciprocal? This actually means I haven’t seen alot of friends. Over my growth in the last few months, I’ve outgrown the majority of ‘my people’. I know this sounds weird and odd. Also than...

​ Two in one day! What on earth did you do to deserve me twice? This is a long ass flight.   If you know me well, you know that this family trip as not been an easy road, though it’s the road I paved. I’m the one who instigated it, and my sister is the one who gave the dates that she could travel. May only, thus a May holiday. This trip also starts on a full moon in Scorpio and 3 of them are Scorpios. So aside from all the things that can go wrong, (like my dad has prostate cancer, he’s hasn’t got on well with his meds, and he has signs of dementia - we could loose him on a Caribbean island, where he may get catfished again in real life !) Wait, wait, this was going to be the happy entry!  Here are all the good things! I think we are all making an effort. It’s various from person to person and it looks different for each one. Buts it’s something. It’s a start.  I almost never see them, maybe once every 2 of 3 years and even then. It’s strenuous. It’s hard to know them, or...